The Little Beam of Light

John 15 : 1 - 8

"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself ; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me."

I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples."

Today, I realize that we are not the one who should ask God to attach Himself to us, but we ask God to reattach our life into Him..

We are to have total dependence in Christ alone and to come to senses that we are just branches who can't do anything without the Vine.. When we are using our own dependence, it's easily to dried up inwardly even though you look great outwardly..

I've been experience this for my past 1 year plus in Kampar.. And this has really struck me on what my life is when i reflect on my past.. It has really been a moment of darkness for me and a little beam of light is in my heart..

This little beam of light has been following me throughout my life even though i forsaken it.. 

This little beam of light has been cautiously reminding me of what i should do but i rejected it 

This little beam of light has been trying to grab hold of me from falling but i couldn't care much

This little beam of light has been guiding me but i ignore it..

This little beam of light which i couldn't even remember to look for in prayer has still remain Faithful in me

This little beam of light's name i cannot remember even when i fall

This little beam of light is called Jesus!! He has constantly reminding me, Kelvin "You are not attach to me, come back to me for I never forsake you nor leave you."

Being lost in darkness for 1 year plus has been long for me.. but Jesus still remain faithful til the end to bring me back into His arms again.. Rebuilding my life now wasn't easy as I look at others that their life is getting better while I'd just begin my odyssey for God.. But, because of this rebuilding, i found the faith i used to have, i found the love which i feel before, i found the joy and laughter which has fly away from me, i found Him as my Vine once more.. And i believe i have more to find again in my life..

I hope that one day, this little beam of light in me can grow to be a gigantic beam of light in my life as i rebuild my life in Him..

My Father is the gardener, and I am the Vine, you are the branches