Moment of Silent

Dono why.. whenever night comes, i just love to on my little lamp.. it makes me feel so peaceful.. love it so much =D

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Today, has been quite a quiet day for me.. I don feel like talking, nor communicating.. Maybe because i don feel so well or maybe because my mouth isn't hardworking enough to talk.. Just feel like having a Sabbath day for Him.. Guess i'll do it on independence day!! =) Gonna be a special Independence day then.. hehe..

Everyone has life's to go through.. Different carrier, different places to stay.. One day, guess meeting up is almost impossible.. but of coz it's possible.. It's sad to think of it that im going to graduate in 8 months time and don't know where am I heading to and don't know how am I going to see all of you again.. Hmm.. This shall be my prayer =D

No matter what it is, I'll remember.. remember all of you.. and hope for the Best from God to You.

Time to initiate plan! =)

God Bless.

Even Though

Been in KL for 3 days.. I couldn't say much about KL except for it's hecticness, busy lifestyle, modern lifestyle? and many hons, cars and motorist.. haha.. However, thats not the point of everything.. It's a much meaningful time for me and it reminds me of my past..

Even though
1. Spend only 3 days
2. Took little picture
3. Couldn't spend much time with all of you
4. Unable to see all of you
5. It's been ages since we met
6. We are far apart
7. Living in different lifestyle
8. Work different area / places

But
1. The memory of togetherness will never be forgotten
2. The care and love for each other will always remain
3. The crazyness and disgusting thing we did will always be remembered!!

And..... ah.. too many.. hehe.. But I will always keep you all in prayer.. and I will miss you guys! Love you guys! =) Im not gay by the way but I'm GAY!!

I hope we could have a lot of those epic and old pictures of us now.. but this is what i can get... only the latest 1.. Hope we can continue be connected in many ways and also hope that one day we will have reunion no matter how..

Even though we hardly see each other, but i believe God will always keep us close..
Even though we are not that close like last time, but i believe God will always keep the bond in our heart.
Even though sometimes the bond in our heart isn't strong, but i believe God will bring us together one day to rebond us and to keep us tight and close in His arms and togetherness like how it use to be.

My life wouldn't be like how it is to be now if I never meet you guys.. =)
Sorry for any wrong i did in the past (if got any.. xD)

I love you guys!

By the way

OUR CG ROCKS!!!!!!! =)

Perfection

Imperfection list
1. Not good in singing
2. Not good in talking
3. Not good in playing instruments
4. Not good in hearing chords
5. Not good in studies
6. Not good in sports
7. Not good in working
8. Not good in doing all sort of stuffs.

What is good in me? =) I'm nothing but a human with imperfection. Talent? Haven't found yet. But through this imperfection makes me want to go on more to obtain what is imperfect to me for I believe to God is all perfect.

Jeremiah 17 : 9 - 10
" The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward man according to his conduct, according to what his deeds deserve."

It's so true that we do not know what our heart think. It is just beyond something we cannot see. But through Faith (Hebrews 11 : 1) we are able to trust in it and keep moving. How to discern rushing and not rushing? Doing with heart and not with heart? His voice or our own voice? Well, i have no answer =) coz I'm still searching.

Answer = In Him alone. How to have all the answer when one cannot remain in Him for as long as he lives? Therefore, remain in Him. Maybe when you remain in Him you cannot find the answer, but I believe He has plans for you. Yes. He gives you wisdom to think. But the main thing to think by using Wisdom is God.

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom."

Wisdom = Fear Him. By fearing Him, meaning everything you do is for Him and with Him and knowing what He despise and what He find favor with. Be strong for Him!

Jeremiah 29 : 11 - 14

His plans is always for us. As long as we seek Him and find Him with our whole heart, we are able to find Him.

Everything comes back to the heart. Our tiny heart. Yet again is the most fragile organ that could affects us so much. Guard your heart! It's never easy, but never hard in Him.

God Bless =)

 I am who I am =)

What is God to you?

In life, sometimes things are hidden away from us. We can't really see. We sense, we observe, but it's not 100% correct. God are sometimes hidden away from us. Why? Mainly is because we fail to remain in Him so that He can remain in us.
 
Waking early every morning is great! i can say =) It gives me more time to spend with Him and meditate with Him and also to build relationship once again.. Fellowship with Him.. coz this is all He wants so that He can remain in me and I in Him.

Today, when i have a little prayer with Him, i ask myself, what is You to me? I realize He is a Guardian to me. It's like in the movie. He is always there to protect me, save me, rescue me when my pride comes, boastfulness comes, when i sin..

He loves us so much that it can contain us til the very end. Love? Relationship? Friends? Life? Let Him take hold of it. If we love Him, we believe it will happen but not to say don't do anything, but let Him do for you. I can't discern the way for you coz every individual has their own way =) Therefore, let's remain in Him.

When Christ dies on the cross for us, is it significant to you? True love.

What is Him to You? Everyone has their own personal name for God. 

1 Corinthians 13 : 1 - 13.

Understand this verses for it is the greatest of all =)

Find your way in Him, and He will make it straight for You.

Love = Believe.

Meteor Fall

Today I woke up at 3.30am because of some inspiration that pass through my mind by using "Touch n Go". Then I was wondering, why did this woke me up.. With no doubt, i straight away reach my lappy and start to type it out.. After typing it, I cannot sleep already.. haha.. wat a day for me.. Then, i heard about meteor that will happen today itself (early early morning). So, around 5.30am (is quite late to see already), i cycle out to the road that leads to the Duckfarm hoping to see 1 or 2 of meteor falls..

Well, to be honest, i don't know i saw it or not.. Just saw some flashy line pass by like 10min once? haha.. but then, i do enjoy the early breeze out there.. even though it's dark, but the cool air calms me down a lot and it's very quiet there since everyone asleep.. except for me.. hehehe...

If what i see is meteor, I'm glad.. but even though is not, I'm happy also to think that i saw it.. But, i found something much better.. a life that pleases God.. I never see Him before, but I'm happy to think that I seen Him by Faith.. Although there are times I might not see Him, which makes me drought, dry, but i have to keep on remember of His Love and Faithfulness and also to remind myself that He knows everything..

How to know is His voice? Only we ourselves can identify.. =) Let's build a relationship that no one can breaks and that pleases Him.. For He create us for His purpose and because of Him, we have life to move on..

Leafs

Leafs are something very beautiful to see.. It can be green, brown, red, yellow and many more color.. It also withered as season comes, and also grow when season comes..

Life is like leafs.. Sometimes, it can be green, it can be brown, it can be red, it can be yellow, or even dried up leafs..

Recently, there are ups and downs in my life.. It's normal right? =D But today it's been hard for me.. I don't know what I'm thinking, don't know where I am heading.. It seem lost to me.. Lost in His love? or Lost in this world? Well, i just feel so dry up.. Michael says even how dry you are God will still use you.. I believe it too.. But i feel so suffering going through this.. I really hope one day, just one day, i could find the answer which I don't know what Im searching for..

People ask, are you ok? I don't know how to answer.. haha.. I seem lost.. Why? adui!!! Kelvin Wong Zhi Xiong!!

Today as I jog, i thought of Casting Crown song "Who Am I" that He want to die for, He want to save, He want to nurture..

Come back to reality.. Who Am I that He place me here? Place me in CF? Place me among my Friends?


* Struggling Struggling *

Guess it's my turn now.

How my leafs go through will determine how my leafs grow. The vine will always grow further than the leafs. How about yours? =) Are you putting up effort to grow a good leafs? Are you letting your Gardener to give u a hand to grow?

 Proverbs 3 : 3 

"Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart."

Let's pray for one another to grow.

Thanks!

Whew, after 2 / 3 days of vacation in Cameron, it has been a refreshing time for all of us thou tired but enjoyed! =)

Before we actually go to Cameron, there are minor things that happen. Kao Meng feet, Florence sick, Jensen shoulder injury, me? met accident in utar.. But, the journey still on! and I believe all of us enjoy it a lot. Thou many traffic jams, but it's a great day and a great moment to remember. =)

While we were there, Derk fall sick. Haha. It  is worrying at first but after that, it is like a joke to us.. but we will never forget that moment.. Derk, He's the MAN! Yeah!and also i think we are all confused on the sexuality of Derk whether he is a male or female..=D haha.. Even though he can't enjoy much with us on Saturday night and Renjie too (coz she take care of Derk), but I believe through all this, God has create something great in us.. God has given us something special to remember.. And i hope it doesn't just remain in Cameron but always be in our heart.. =) haha.. i will always remember it!

For some of us, we have 9months more to go in our Uni life and well, i enjoyed this very moment and i hope all of us do and are able to leave a legacy behind =) i hope all of us who are graduating soon are able to keep up the good work and also continue to grow together.. 9 months more =(

Life sometimes can be dark and sometimes can be bright / light.. It all depends on how we look at it.. No matter how dark it is, there is always light inside of us.. There is always color inside of us to color our day, to brighten up our life..


Create your own color life with Him.. Be natural in everything u do and always remember God Loves You..
Live life to the fullest of Him.. 


Love you all! =) Let's have another trip somewhere else!! hehehe..