Ask Yourself.

I'm here not to condemn you because it does applies to myself. As I blot this out, I myself has been reflecting about incidents and situation that has occur to me but by pass by me.

When I read Philip Yancey's book on Finding God in Unexpected Place, one sentence of word strikes me, "Where is the church when it hurts?" - this question comes out from him when the 9/11 terrorism happens because people in large are asking "Where is God when it hurts?".

It's so sad that nowadays Christian themselves want to find comfort in church, want the church to meet their needs and wants (like a consumer in market place), mixing their beliefs with God's beliefs in how church should run and how Christian should act upon. Christian themselves can't find peace in God but in human, can't find comfort in God but in human, can't find security in God but in the world (not pointing at anyone but in general, my point of view).

If Christians are acting like this, how can a church(not building but people of God) work in times like this (9/11) or Bersih? God can review Himself anytime He wants to the people, but He also will review through you and me. But the problem is how can He review to the people through us if we are acting like selfless fool who only wants to be among ourselves? How much do you want to deny yourself and say we are still lacking of training? Isn't the place at work is a training to you already?

When I reflect on all this, it strikes myself as a Christian on what have we become in this world, and what about God's ultimate commandment and commission for us? I'm deeply trouble by it and may the Spirit leads me to teach me more and act upon learning all of this.

It's definitely a challenge to me to be observant enough to see God works in many places in order to react directly to the mission that Jesus has set for us in this world.

You don't need to have any talents or gifts, what you need is just commitment as people of Christ.

http://lightmyfart.blogspot.com/2011/11/superpowers.html Hope this link helps you too! :)

I hope it does the same to you in challenging you.

May the Lord leads.

Workers vs Fields.

Matthew 9: 37 - 38

"He said to His disciples, "The harvest is great, but the workers are few. So pray to the Lord who is in charge of the harvest; ask him to send more workers into His fields."

Have you ever wonder about this verse? I never really think about it deeply until today when I joined church Christmas Carol.

I've been wondering is this true? Is the field is too big that workers are lesser? Probably at Jesus time, it is so, but look around you now, observe it. In the past, Jesus says this because many has not known the TRUTH, but now, I do not know the exact statistic of how many has not know the truth, but I'll assume 95% has known it and at least hear it before.

Therefore, how can we understands from this truth of this words in our generation? I feel it's simply human being (imperfection). Commitment is truely a big issue now. People want to do what they want to do only and wouldn't care to bother other things and not do it. All they do is "I want to do my stuff (I'm Busy technically)" and they complain about other people doing other things, helping out one another and doing what that guy supposed to do. Christian workers are not few nowadays, there are a lot a lot a lot! Imagine in Malaysia, how many churches are there in Malaysia? 1 mega church can fit thousands of people! Are there really few workers?

How about the field? I couldn't measure exactly how big or small is there now. I'm no God. But based on my own observation, in the past, fields are way bigger than now. Don't you think so?

Therefore, commitment is an utmost important in life. No work can be done through a non commitment actions. Be strong! Courage! Do not let nonsense emotions hold you down from committing yourself to the Lord. It's time to realize that what you have said, have declare, have sung, unto the Lord Your God has to be in your heart and not your head and to put it into practice.

Even when I say this, I find it so hard to do it. Do not know where to starts. Then a verse comes to me,
Matthew 6 : 34 : Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.. "

I'm putting myself into this Commitment and learning from His word day by day to build a solid foundation on a solid Rock. How about you? If I fail, help me out and do not condemn me. Let's love each other.

Mercy and Grace will follow us all the way of our life. That's His promise.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yKkDzII4s4s
God Bless.

Have you forgotten the promises?

While I'm filtering my pictures on my lappy, I come upon these few pictures. Let's have a look at it :)

Did you remember what you write and what you prayed for? It's always easy to do something then forgetting about it especially when it comes to something that we always do since we are young. Praying, reading Bible, and etc. It's like a sand castle. If we never take a picture of it, the sea water will just gush and wave upon it and it's gone.

I'm here to not say that I'm all perfect that I can remember all my promises, prayers to God and to you and me, but I'm also learning on how to jot down what I prayed, what I promised so that I can keep track of my commitment to God and to you.

It's like love. It has to be tested of its commitment before one can truely love a person. Of course the test must be a test where commitment is there and the absence of it is infatuation.

Brother and Sister,

do not forget what burns your soul when you sing for Him.
do not forget what fires up your heart when you decide to receive Him as your personal Savior.
do not forget who God is and why you are baptized for.
do not forget your commitment to Him. Serve 100%, Rest 100%. He sees the heart.

All this are to be remember and act upon. It's always easy to forget because this is what Satan want us to forget (Genesis 4 : 7b : Sin is crouching at the door, eager to control you. But you must subdue it and be its master). Let not sin win over your commitment to Christ, your love to Christ and let not your judgement condemn you whenever a brother or sister tries to help you in ways that you dislike.

Fight the Good race brother and sister. Remember the commitment we made. To Him, It's very important. Let's made it important too.

Let your heart continue to burn for Him.

Passion

Commitment

Love

Endurance.

Some little picture of the past. It reminds me of how they look when they were younger :P

The Heart That Matters.

Ever wonder when was the last time you gave your best shot to the Lord?

I just gave it today. It's unexpected. Like how God use to be huh? Mysterious God ;)

Today, ran with derk, kao meng, jensen and another girl (don't know how to spell) - just like old times. haha. miss that moment. Anyway, was running, upon reaching 5km, my knee couldn't take it, guess that's my limit for now, then in my mind I was thinking "cannot stop! must move on. They are my motivation." Then I pray, and God remind me that motivation and determination, they can come from human, but mainly it comes from the Lord. Then, I repent (i think) and tell God, even though my knee is in pain, let me finish 1 round. 1 word came to me. It's not gonna be easy, suffering will come first and indeed!!! Suffering does come first, running in pain isn't such a good thing. haha

However, keep pushing myself then upon reaching the guard house, in the beginning i think, hmm, take short cut la then after that I tell myself cannot! must finish it like I promised to God. So I keep running and running and when I reach the guard house (almost), derk and kao meng was inside Harvard running already and they ask me to turn in. My heart felt so much relieved! Able to take short cut and rest earlier. No need to push my knee further more.

Well, my point is, the moment you decided to give your best shot, your heart in finishing the race for the Lord, He is glad and definitely happy because what He wants is the heart. The HEART that matters the most. Like Abraham where God ask him to sacrifice his first born child, Abraham wouldn't want it to happen  but he obey and gave his heart to the Lord, but in the end, God called him to stop from sacrificing his son.

He loves to test the heart of His creation. Of course, there are many ways in Him testing your heart. He may test me and let me run the full 1 round rather than short cut. But no matter what, before that happens, my heart has decided to finish it and I'm prepared to do it. Therefore, I guess I pass 1 of the many test in my life for Him.

Remember, failed or succeed, He know what is best for you and me. Heart that matters :)

God Bless.

The Old Times. Now TMM has blossom like never before.

Sex first or Love first?

I think it's very important to identify which comes first when you decided to meet the person and be with him or her. Many are caught up into the mindset of sex first because it's what a human desire (i would say the most). I'm not saying this as if we are all perfect but the divine order is love first, then come sex. However, by looking generally into this world, it seems the human order are sex first.

Let's put our mindset straight and right, if it is sex first, can love blossom? It's a rational idea if love come first, and with sex (natural attractiveness that God has given) come later, it will blossom even more.

Just like a flower, without the roots, there won't be any transferring of nutrient to blossom up the flower or even making it to grow. The roots are supposed to be what a relationship should be enjoying in their fellowship, friendship, help, support, sacrifice, collaboration and etc (Nate Saint). These are the root or factors that love must be measured.

What comes after that, only you, your spouse and God knows .

Let our roots be strong before we get into any relationship and actions.

Oh, I'm not trying to condemn anything or anyone, but just some thoughts that come through my mind. You never know what a person may go through, may the Lord watches over us and guard our hearts that are engraved by His law, His words, and His love.

Take care :)

Sin

I believe everyone know what sin is about. Some take sin lightly, some take sin heavily.

Is having sex before marriage a sin?

Is smoking a sin?

Is gambling a sin?

Is parking double parking and you know it a sin?
Is bullying your friend a sin?

Is looking lustfully at woman or man a sin?

I do not know which is sin or which is not, but I believe that the moment you are born, one has sin in him or herself that I also believe he or she realizes it because the law of the Lord is inside of them the moment they are created by Him. Whether they accept Him or not, the Law of the Lord is always abide in them.

Not to say sin is good, but I'm glad that God's law make me realize that I'm a sinner and I accept it. I use to think when I'm young, I don't sin so much, I don't do bad things and always do good. But as I grew up, I come to know that each and everyday, I'm sinning whether I realize it or don't realize it. I'm glad that I know because it teaches me to seek for His Grace, to seek for His forgiveness and to understands how He works in me. He doesn't see the good things I've done and then forgives me, but before I repented, He has forgiven me. Such is His Grace that is so much that a mere human cannot contain it.

Through this sinful nature in me, I learn so much about Him. His Grace, His Love, His Forgiving heart. No matter what life or past I've gone through, i leave it up to Him and move on from the mistakes I've done and learn from it.

Without going through 1 part of sin, I wouldn't understands how He works. Probably my head knows, but now my heart knows it as well.

I hope that everyone of you don't condemn yourself in this sin, but remember that Christ has died and be sacrificed to win over our death and sin. He loves you more than anything. Question may comes, but do not lean on that question so much. It's all about having Faith in God.

May you find His Grace that covers you all the day of your life. :)

Life?

What is life? Google can define it for you, Oxford Dictionary can define for you, wikipedia also has a definition for it.

But think of it, what is life to you? what are your definition of life?

This question came to me when I ponder upon life that I love to live for. Seeing everyone having all these beautiful cars, beautiful house, beautiful watch, house full of  good furnitures. It stirs my heart to yearn for all this but not long after that I realize or been rebuke by God, what is all this thing? Does it fills my heart and bring joy to me? Hmmm... I won't say all will feel this, but it's me.

I don't f ind joy in all these. When i think if i ever work in a secular world, my thoughts are success and money for all this good lovely things. So what for? I don't serve money that I need to work to earn more than a living and keep paying my loan until I retired or died. I don't serve success that I need to be one and look elegant in a suit.

I'm serving God, Father, Him and Him alone. If He wants me to be like such, I wouldn't say no but asking Him to humble me down from all these attitudes and know who is my Master. If His will is not for me to be such, I loved living a life for people. People who need care, people who need love, people who need to know what real life is all about, people who need the Lord to know Him, to see Him.

I really don't know what to say more, but think what life is all about to you? what makes you happy without seeking so hard for it but it comes from the Lord that fill your heart with joy and contentment?

Do not hesitate in any answer.

Be patience and always ponder upon it and in the same time look around you and see what is life to others and more important what is life to you? Be kind to yourself and seek. Remember, be kind to yourself.

May God lead you all of you in seeking a life that brings meaning to you. And if it is for you, remember it is also for God.

Hope

It's been long since I post something :)

Many tells me, why put hope in someone when he or she always fail you? Some even say, you still want that person to be in charge in doing things? Come on man!

Yea.. It may seems like it's stupid or rather pointless to put hope in a person who always fail you and never show anything good.. It may seems like all hope losses it ground in that particular person (I hope is one only).

Last time, God teaches me about Faith. Then He teaches me about Love. Then now He teaches me about Hope. Of course I'm still learning all these, but as I learn, I learn others as well.

Let me tell you my consequences when I put hope in a person.

My dad has not been a really great dad in my family.
He has never really take good care of us.
He always mistreat my mom in many ways.
He communicates very little with us.
He is a mysterious guy (how my brother call him :D) who never tell anything to us.
He always keep everything to himself.
He is not a good breadwinner.
He never teaches us like how a father should teach.
He always go out late night.
He always slept till evening and if you wakes him up, you get scolded.
and many more.

This is who he is throughout the whole time i knew him.

However, after something happen to my family where my mom was put under restriction area far from home and when me, my elder brother, and my younger brother left home to further studies elsewhere which leaves my little brother here with my dad. He changes! What changes?

He travel many times in his old age to see my mom.
He re-married my mom :)
He take good care of my brother.
He take good care of the house.
He do laundry, cooks, buy lunch, buy breakfast early morning (which happens today!).
He waves goodbye to us when he leaves the house (which he don't don last time)
He cares for the household.
He call and ask whether house got any more food before he come backs from work.
He calls us and ask whether we need supper or not.
He is a real breadwinner now!

He loves us so much that whenever i look at all his actions now, i feel like wow!!!! is this my dad? haha.. He really change a lot and one thing for sure, Praise God! If we never put hope in him, my mom divorced him long ago, i'll rebels againts him long ago, but look! through prayers though it takes long time and through hardship which the Lord cast upon, my dad change for the better! What more can I ask for?

Therefore, hope is something that I think is very important in our lives. Though it may hurt you, but it is worth putting hope in someone and keep praying until something happens.

Honestly, i din really pray all the time, but look, though i don pray all the time, the Lord still show His love and grace towards my family again and again.

Sorry if I didn't put my words properly, but I would love to share personally if you and I got the time :)

I hope this does encourage you if  you are having problem with someone.

Don't lose hope but keep putting more Hope for Hope is a light and the light is God.