Crossroads.

Yesterday, as I was walking to Public Bank for interview and walking back to sentral, I'd seen many behaviors. People rushing to work, rushing to catch train / LRT, honk around, rushing in eating and lots more. It makes me wonder what this world has become. I felt pretty sophisticated living in a world as such. You know, working all your life, earning money, buying house cars or maybe just enough to survive, and lots more. Earning money to travel, have fun and lots more.

It's a curse for mankind I guess.

Anyway, what I want to say is only about to start now.

Before I go down to KL for an interview, I called my mom and got to know something about my family. What's happening in and out and of course I'm worried for them. I want to help them so much and wanted to just lift their burden.

During that process of thinking and moving around in KL, I come to my sense that at times I wish that Jesus has come to Earth to judge and to redeem us from all kind of slavery. It's for the first time that I also don't mind in giving up my life just for Him (or maybe just to leave this world). I guess being a Christian is difficult. It's so difficult that if you chose to follow Christ, you gotta throw all these worldly stuffs and thoughts away. He never says you cannot enjoy the honey and milk of the Earth but all this are only to be enjoyed when He decides to reward you in full. Therefore, I come to my senses that where ever you choose to work, deciding on your path, always ponder what about what He says and what your heart says and what the world says.

The world says, "Join this company and your career path shall be awesome! It gives you greater experience in this place, so come and join us!"
 Your heart may say, "Wow! It's so true! If I join this career path, I have a pretty awesome career life but what about God's will? What does He want me to do? This path seems pretty, but what if God says no? How? What should I do?
God may say, "Pray to me, seek me, ask me, knock on me and the door shall be open to you. Follow my command and obey it. Everything will be given unto you if you ask of My name."

So how? What path shall one chose? I'm not saying all these because I'm judging but I hope that when you come to a crossroad, choose wisely. Look around you. Don't work just for the sake of beautifying your own house, your own car, your own life when people around you are being pressed by rich fellows. It may sound like "I've earned it myself, i can choose my own way of life." Yes you may, but don't you think life is more than just this?

One little advice and I hope it helps. Don't go decide on what you want to do and comfort yourselves by saying "I'll give Him back 10% of my salary or saying I'll serve more in Church." Remember, God doesn't want all this, He wants you to yearn for Him, seek Him, Obey Him, Love Him and the list goes on.

My experience :

"God has been gracious to me. He knows where He wants me to go, but still because of what I asked or applied for, He opens the way so that I'm able to go for interviews. However, during that period, I realize that God never want me jump into all this companies to work for, but He want me to jump into His company, a company that He has chosen for me. But I guess I'm still a little bit reluctant to follow. If you ever read this post, do keep me in your prayer as I'm in the Crossroad of choosing between my way or God's way."

Do not worry about me. I guess eventually I'll choose God's way because I felt more happy and joyful in serving Him rather than serving other buildings. Though His way may be a way that I couldn't imagine how I'm able to go through, but I guess God's way is never easy for us to comprehend. Let Him lead and I shall follow.

-Kelvin Wong-
A messy heart that yearns for God so much, but at the same time is worried about what may come and where to go.